Dear Miah,

I miss you so much, I wish we could be able to hang out more, even though I was having this problem over winter break, they seemed to be gone when I was with a big group of family. Your my best friend, and doing this without you is so hard. I have lived it for a while, I'm so sorry I never told you about it before. I should have, there were no reason to not tell you. I love your advice, and I'm fighting this demon inside me. It may not seem like I listen to what you say, but I do. And it means so much that you say it in the first place. This place I'm in is a very dark place, and I'm so sorry if I'm not always the happiest. I try so hard, sometimes you just can't be happy, its how life works and I have accepted that. I'm going to get help hopefully soon. Maybe it will keep it away longer this time. Even though it never went fully away, at least it fades away. I just want you to know I love you, and your friendship means the world to me. I'm so blessed to have you as my cousin and best friend. I really don't know how I would have survived all these many years without you. I'm always here for you, even when it doesn't seem like I am. You can come to me with anything, and I will never judge, I will listen and give you the best advice I could give. I'm so glad you told me about this blogging, writing had left me for so long it seemed like it would never come back. But it has, writing is what helps me get things out, so I don't hold everything in. Because of you being you, you're helping me get better. Thank you for always being there.

Luvvvv
Tiff