Well if I'm going to have live with you in my mind for the rest of my life, I might as well get some of it out of my system. Let some stress out by writing about it, even though no one I know will see this, but hey it might help. Only one person here knows, but really she doesn't know how bad you are getting. And now I can't work out, because of a stupid concussion. Working out is the one thing that helps fading your stupid voice from my mind. You never have anything nice to say when you visit my life. Life was going good, and then you just had to show up, but I'm not surprised one bit. I knew it would happen, and you did too. You seem to be counting down the days I left until I went off to college along. Because it would be then that you would drag me down to your level and try and destroy me. Break me until there is nothing left. I'm trying so hard to fight you, but I can feel you getting stronger. I just wish you would just go away, and leave my life forever. But we both know that won't happen, we both know you will be in and out of my life until I die. How exciting. Hopefully you aren't what destroy me so much you kill me in the end. Hopefully I die a different way than from you. It’s had to go through every single day, pretending that everything is okay, and you make it harder. I need to fight and stop you, but I just can't. So much is going on and it’s the perfect time for you to take advantage of me. And that’s exactly what you're doing, but I have to warn you I'm a very strong minded person. I will fight until I can't not for the life of me fight anymore. So bring it on.
At this very moment, you may be saying to yourself that you have any number of admirable qualities. You are a loyal friend, a caring person, someone who is smart, dependable, and fun to be around. That's wonderful, and I'm happy for you, but let me ask you this: are you being any of those things to yourself?Phillip C. McGraw
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