Yesterday your voice was pretty soft, mostly because when I got on the scale that morning, you thought it was a good number. I guess well for now, you said softly. Then I ate too much throughout the day, like for once three meals and some snacks. This made me feel like shit, and you made me feel even worse. I tried my best just to ignore all the hurtful things you were throwing at me, but I just couldn’t fade you out. Then it also didn’t help that, I have spent over I don’t know how many months thinking this guy really liked me, and it turns out he just sees me as a really good friend. Then you just had to tell me how, it was my fault because I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t pretty enough, skinny enough, and smart enough. That really didn’t help. So I went to bed feeling not so great, still hoping he likes me more, because he’s a great guy. But you will make it easy for me to get over him, you always do. By making me feel shitty about other things going on in my life which in return makes the feeling for the guy go away. Gosh I just feel so stupid, how could I not realize it. He changed, and I changed. He’s perfect and well I’m nowhere near being perfect, you said it was too good to be true, I guess you were right.
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